I can study all I want. I read my textbook when I want to learn about historical events. I work math problems to learn about Algebra. I mix chemicals in labs to know about Chemistry. Academics is easy because there’s always something I can do to make sure I strive. 

I can’t handle people. There’s nothing I can do to get into someone’s head. I will never know what they are exactly thinking. Even if we talk, I will not know. Because I know too well how thoughts sometimes cannot formulate into spoken words. How you could talk for days and still not get your point across. I also know how easily thoughts can be lied about. I’ve done it myself. Lying is too easy. 

I wish there was a manuel for your head. I want to know your thoughts so badly but it is impossible. If there was a textbook labeled “His Mind” I could flip through the index and find the page numbers. “Thoughts Regarding Rosay”- Chapter 17, section 3. I could stay up reading all night and know all about your thoughts.

Instead, people don’t work like that. Because of that, I don’t know your thoughts. You’ll have to tell me.